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| Life oh life, where hast thou gone?
You used to be a breeze on my skin,
But now I search but can't find you
And I'm forced to face the terrors within. Life oh my life, what road lays before?
How long shall I tread without sight
How long will you teach me to fight?
Life oh my life, turn the pages of time
Bring me back to the life without fear.
Where I knew where I was,
And to where I would go
Bring me to the threshhold anew. So yeah, that was a random scribble. Money has been the biggest issue in life right now. Michael is still unemployed and I quit my job at Chili's because I couldn't stand it any longer, so that was a MAJOR pay cut on me, because yes I have the job at the CPA firm and I still work with J&L every so often, but ....it's just not really working out as well as I thought it might. It's only a month till graduation though, which means, hopefully, I'll be making some real money. I don't officially have a job just yet, but I'm really looking in to Waddell & Reed as a Financial Advisor. I've applied at quite a few places for an internal postion, but I've heard nothing back from anyone, so I'm just going to assume no one wants me becaus I don't have good enough credentials, or something. Whatever, guess I'm not worth that much, or my resume sucks or something. Bummer. Alison intends to move in with us when we move out of our apartment. We found a house we really like, and the current resident moves out the end of this month, so technically we could move in then, but Michael and I can't break our lease and our lease goes through till January, so I don't know what we would do about that. Because it would obviously be stupid to be paying for both a house and apartment but only be living in one. So I don't know what we're going to do about that. Of course, we're going to have to step it up on the whole income scene because that's what made the guy wary of us before. He says we're still in the running, but I feel that if we can't prove to him that we'll be making income (Michael and I) it's not going to go well, and then I'll feel like I have let Alison down, because she really wants that place. We could still look at other places though, maybe not something as expensive. *shrug* Sucky thing about doing the Financial Advisor thing is I have to pay for myself to get licensed and that is going to cost roughly $800! Luckily....and hopefully, I should be getting a scholarship my teacher recommended me for and that will help cover that cost (so that I CAN start making money post graduation) and also be able to help pay for the move in costs of the house. I'm still worried about the timing though >_< Ach! Hence my life poem about not being very easy and not knowing where I'm going. Le sigh. | | |
| So school is fun, except for the teams part because team members never seem as motivated as I am (well at least one of my teams), and except for the teacher who shouldn't be a teacher because he doesn't know how to talk to students, or people really in general, and even the dean said they brought him back only because they had no one else to teach it. Wow, great. Thanks. Way to ruin my last semester of college. Argh!! Prof. Chappell is the bomb though. I'm glad I took his class, and I wish I had taken him for my intro to fina course, but *shrug* cet vie (we'll hope that's the right translation Des). I'm annoyed at the moment though because I've got a presentation to make with my group tonight and it's 30% of our grade and we've met TWICE to go over it....*shakes head* and I'm also annoyed at the fact that I had two pieces of fried chicken (not huge, but good enough) a side of macaroni, had to get a piece of pizza because I wasn't filled up yet, and I'm STILL HUNGRY!!! UGH! I did just get back from the beach though, so I did have some time to relax, even though I took my school stuff with me and forgot to bring anything else to keep myself entertained, but that's okay, because Saturday was a NCIS marathon on USA and I had a blast with that ^_^ then I saw the second episode of the season of Tool Academy, which I was happy about, so woot. Now I'm just piddle paddling around time before class starts. *annoyed* At least I don't have to worry about Chappell's projects for now. It's not due till Oct 1 but I turned it in today so I don't HAVE to worry about it while I'm doing all my other stupid presentations and stuff. Lol. Well I'm going to go sit in class now till it starts. Woohoo. Oh I did get the job at the CPA firm ^_^ and I start on Monday. Yay! I'm excited! | | |
| Yay Michael is back...for like three days, then he's off to Alabama >_< on Monday till about Saturday he says. Then home for another couple of days, then up to Pennsylvania (wow, I haven't had to spell out that state in FOREVER!!!) for another week probably. Sad days. School has started, I've had all but one class and I think I'm going to like most of them. One of the teachers is like...so dull and not energized about his subject at all. It's a complete contrast the next teacher I have, he's awesome. Had a phone interview with a CPA firm for a Bookkeeper position, *crosses fingers* I'll find out whether I get it or not by next Friday. If I don't get it I can still go to Enterprise. Michael (boss) already said I could, even after I told him about the position I applied for elsewhere. So that's nice to know I'll have somewhere to go besides just Chili's. Though I'll still have to work there on the weekends. But I do also have J&L every now and again, I just hope they work me a bit more than they have been, though I'm not sure I've been sending in availability, which is probably why they haven't given me any jobs. Haha. Okay, I'm done. | | |
| School starts this week. On thursday to be exact. I'm pretty excited. Though I need to find my financial calculator...it seems to have disappeared on me. No matter. Financial issues either aren't as bad as I was thinking they'd be, haven't really been pushed to the limit yet, or I'm just supressing my worries about them. Either way, I'm not overly stressing anything. Dad was able to get a parent loan for my school this year, it was only 1250 (2500 broken in to two payments) but that's enough to leave about 600 left out of pocket for us, which is much more managable, since I had 1000 tucked away in case of an emergency. So I can pay that off and hopefully be able to get all my books for school. I've still got a good bit in my own account at the moment, so I'm not entirely hurting for money, yet. Plus, I'll be putting in my schedule with Chili's soon *this week probably* it'll only be a couple of shifts because I'll be working at Enterprise over the semester on the days I don't have but one class in the evening. So I should be banking in around 25 per week, closer to 30 if I work on a Saturday. And if I just deal with working weekends at Chili's working Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights, I should make a good bit of money. Enough to hopefully sustain Michael and I whilst he's on the job search and unemployment kicks in (it's not too much that he'll be getting weekly, but it's much better than nothing). He was getting tired of that job anyway so it's kind of a relief (to me) that he was laid off, not sure how he sees it though. Maybe he'll only get something part time for now, since his plan is to go back to school anyway. Course, I doubt he'd plan on doing that till next fall, save up for a full year before starting back, so he probably would want full time employment. I honestly think that I haven't started freaking out yet because of my faith. I've gone through difficult financial times before, and I've never once been let down. I stopped worrying about getting school paid off this semester because I knew that if it was in God's plan, something would come through and we'd be able to pay the tuition bill, and alas, things have worked out. So I know things will be okay with me and Michael. I'm kind of sad lately though, Michael and I keep getting into random spouts and little fights. Alison suggests it's because I'm not used to him being home and around me all the time and that can get very frustrating for people. And I think that has a good deal to do with it. Also, though I know Michael realizes he needs to get a new job, he doesn't really seem to be that urgent to find one. Both his mom and I have sent him job postings we've seen that we think he might be good for, and I don't think he's pursued either of them. I know last Monday and Tuesday he went out and inquired at some places, but I don't think he really wants to start till he gets his umemployment checks. Which, since he's out of town till Friday, wouldn't really help much even if they came in. this week. He's doing some work with Mac's dad running the auctions he used to do. Obviously it's not real work, it's parttime, but it's at least some additional cash in his pocket. He's got quite a few bills to be paid next month and I'm hoping we'll both have enough to get everything paid off. As I said just a lil bit ago, I know God is watching over us and will help us if we need it. That's what He does. ^_^ I did some modeling for Des this past week, well technically it wasn't for Des. It was for the photography center she's interning at. They were having a lighting workshop and they needed a few models for the photographers, so I stayed down there Monday night till Wed morning. Trust me...it sucks making the drive from Charleston to Columbia at 8 am >_< course I did hop right back in to bed once I got home. The modeling deal was fun though. I'm still waiting on the pictures we're supposed to be getting from it. Des was able to take some quick shots here and there of me. Her boss told her she'd prefer if she not do a photoshoot, so that she can help any of the workshopee's if they needed it. Of course that makes sense, and I know it was hard for Des not to do a shoot. But the few pictures she did snap are beautiful. I gave Yoda a bath today. He hated it, and was trying to escape the tub the whole time, but I only got a couple scratches on my foot, so no harm done. Yay. He feel ssoooooo much better now though. His fur was just icky. He's sleeping next to me on the couch at the moment. I'm sure my arm motions are bothering him, but oh well. He looks like he's sleeping through it. That's about all I've got for now. So I guess until I decide to write again, peace joy love. | | |
| So today has gone really good so far, so I'm feeling fairly optimistic about this coming semester....or I guess I should say just the next few months in general. Michael is still looking for a job, but I've got things quite settled down so I'm not stressing out too much anymore. I should be able to defer school payments over a three month period, rather than having the whole $1800 upfront by two weeks, which is awesome. Plus Enterprise called me and said that if I wanted to stay on through the semester that would not be a problem, so if I can't find another job working around here, then I will have that work with. Though I definitely would be paid better there than anywhere else, so I might just do it anyway. I'll still probably work a couple times at Chili's weekends just to keep in some extra money. So hooray for relaxing about things that were making you freak out. yay! | | |
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